Let Nursing 6 begin- Road to Graduation!

Forgive for not posting sooner but I passed nursing 5. I was slightly disappointed with my grade compared to the last few Hesi exams but it was still good. Also slightly disappointed with the fact that I heard the teacher saying how awesome other students did but then said (reluctantly?) "good job and check the ones you missed so you can review them".... What can I say, I did my best and asked God to help and reguardless of what others think of my grade I did well and I passed the class with a B. Yes yes I got a B!!!! To me that is a miracle, so thanks God.....

But like nursing school fashion our first exam of nursing 6 is Tuesday.... momma mia! It's on Pharm, Mental Health, & Dosage so I'm trying my best to prepare like always and praying to God for help and releave my fears/anxiety etc. I think with each clinical lately God has shown me that I am on the right path and that he does want this for my life. I can't tell you how many times I have mentioned the "calling" I have for this profession. If fact I am not sure if most people would understand how moved I am and grateful that God has chosen this for me. I am just about to tear up thinking about it all and I'm not sure if I won't ear up at pinning on May 2, 2012. Especially since my dad will be there and the one person who won't that I wish could- Dorothy. So there is goes, trickle trickle down my face lol. I guess I need God that day too (like i do everyday) to keep me calm and in charge of my emotions so I don't start bawling my eyes out because for that I'm sure no one will understand.....

Ok so I have 3 exams and 7 practicum days on postpartum unit. So if care to pray for me that would be awesome because I'm sure to be stressed & challaged. God has blessed me so much and I hope he will continue to through this process and getting my family in a stable life in TN.

Also if anyone has prayed or will pray on my behalf- thank you...

Also- I've had that song "this little light of mine I'm going to let it shine" stuck in my head for days but I tweaked it a bit " This little light of mine, God's gonna let it shine..." hehe

Pharm = Complete!

So I passed my Pharm final, actually more than passed it so of course I did pretty well on the class. God answered my prayers and blessed me. So now I have to get my last clinical on Wed. & then the Nursing 5 Final on Friday. With God's blessing again I will exceed at that and complete nursing 5 so that I may start nursing 6 which means Tuesday exam!!!
Also we are going to check out the rental house down the road from my brother's house on the 29th! So excited, says they are still working on it and that it is 5 bedroom but they must be like tiny because the house is only 1800 sqft. But hey I'm not judging it until I see it (and smell it)! I hope all these little pieces are all apart of God's plan for my husband & I.
Say a little prayer for me!!!!

Onto test 2 of 4....

In 24 hours I will sitting down at a computer about to begin the 2nd of the 4 tests in 2 weeks thing. It's Pharm, not my best subject, first Pharm hesi as opposed to teacher made exam but at least I have made enough points so far that I do not need a high score to pass, however I will do my best and hope to better on this exam that my last pharm exam. Then friday is my 3rd exam, another final, and I hope to surpass my previous exam by doing so well like 90 or better would be great. And then I'll know if I am passed & completed Nursing 5 & Pharm so I can start Nursing 6 next Tuesday. Prayers Please!
I'm going to try balance studying with coping with the stress. I have started etting almostt daily headaches since last Thursday (my last test), so I'm pretty sure it is due to stress/anxiety.
At the end of the day I know it's all by God's grace and his will so faith I shall have...

The last childless nearly-30-yr-old

I just re-realized that I am the only one of my friends that has no kids, this includes a friend a few years younger than me. I can't begin to analyze my life to determine what I did to end up this way, was not my plan but then again life hands you stuff. I have battled a life in a instability as it was how I was raised and maybe soon I'll feel stable again...

Request for prayers...

School is getting down to the nitty gritty.

Two weeks from tomorrow will be 2 weeks with 4 tests. This has probably not happened in Nursing school before because I've not had 2 classes at the same time, nor 3 classes in 1 semester. This Thursday is N5 2nd exam, covering disaster nursing, Change/Conflict, & Quality Improvement/time management. Then next Monday is the Pharm Hesi Final (omg be with me), then the friday after that is N5 Hesi Final, then the Tuesday after that (or 2 wks from tomorrow) is N6 1st general nursing exam covering Pharm, MH, Dosage- assuming that you/I/we pass Nursing 5 & Pharm!!!

So I could really use a few extra prayers on behalf! The N5 exams are hard because you don't know what they are going to ask, the material is less black/white than normal nursing content. Pharm, well what can I say, it is my hardest topic. Seriously how many drugs are in the world and you want me to know random information about each (interactions, expected/not expected effects, when to give it/withhold it, etc). Then there is the general exam... since that is the first day of nursing 6 I'm not really sure what info we will get before the test (like tips or helpful hints or advice for the course & exams). I've been calling it "hell weeks", although I'm pretty confident it is nothing like hell itself. Hell is surely worse but it will be a huge challenge, at times tortuous, extremely stressful. I will be yo-yo-ing between studying and can't take anymore studying, then guilt for not studying enough, then convincing myself to focus on content I half know VS learning new things and of course consuming high sugar substances & when the house is bare of these items telling Rob I need a McFlurry or McD's ice cream cone STAT!

I know God will be with me on my personal roller-coaster of all the above & emotions. I believe and trust he will get me through it and I will succeed, I will exceed at the exams and be promoted to the next course (N6) & do well on its first test so I can be on the road to graduating May 2nd!

And then on March 27th, after all the exams are over for a brief period I will take my cats to TN to stay with my brother until my Husband & I will make the BIG MOVE...

With my hardest effort and faith in God that he will bless me & my family, with his will & hope for my life.

So if anyone out there sends a prayer for me I thank you from the depths of my heart. Nursing school is and has been a long long long hard road and I'll be crying tears of joy on the inside when I get my pin on May 2, 2012.

Giving it to God...

Every now and then I get caught up on something in life....

Most recently it has been over money, more specifically the fact that TN RN's get paid on the low side of the range, the very low side. So naturally I became concerned abut my ability to provide for my family, whether we could afford for Rob to go to college or get deeper in debt with student loans, could we even afford a child and still love a comfy life, or would we be worse off than now (and for the record "now" is unrealistic- too few bills and a monthly trust- all ending soon..). You might say it made me kind of down. I immediately recognized how absurd I was being. That a job is blessing and since i don't have a job ATM.... having one would be an improvement. A then a for a second I considered my back up option... my go-to last resort choice= Dorothy's house. A place I hope I own all my life and teach my children well enough to continue to pass it down the family tree like a giant heirloom. True - Ohio nurses do make more the TN. But I'm seriously considering it, thus the "last resort" theory. Although apart of my dream is to fix Dorothy's house, put in central heat and air, fix any flaws, maybe even update it a little. But as I contemplate how I'll ever afford to buy my own home, how then could I ever have enough funds to fix up a house I don't live in. In my mind selling the house isn't an option, I nearly tear up at the thought of it, in fact I think it would scar me so badly that I'd forever have difficulty driving by it. What can I say, I', F****d up in the head ?!?

That wasn't my point... my point was......

I always am driven back to God. I'm again and always putting my faith in him and asking for guidance. I believe in my heart that God will, in one way or another, provide for me and my family. That whatever is going to happen is all apart of his plan. And I will do my best to listen diligently and do my part. I'm not just about to graduate nursing school because I did it all on my own- God was there the whole time, along with other support. So that I was stressed and down, I'm giving it over to God....

Blessings

I feel the light of heaven shining upon me....

I got my practicum schedule, which starts the 3rd and I have a couple days to study before the exit Hesi, and I get to take my "cats to tn" trip. I also applied for my first nursing job, I don't know what the odds are of me getting it but hey I did have a little luck with applying to one job and getting it.... I really only applyed because the job doesn't start until June 25th, kind of afraid to apply for other jobs because I can't start til about june since I have to finish school and get the License!!!

So I'm feeling pretty good but before the mini trip and before practicum (on a mother/baby unit- yes!) I have 4 exams. 2 hesi finals, a N5 exam, & General nursing (pharm, da, mental health). So I have some major cramming to do over the next few weeks.... Lord help me please!

And maybe we'll even get to view a potential rental house and the landlord might be so nice to let use reserve it for may/june... if he does I hope God continues to bless me by getting me a nursing job....

This truly must be his will

Spring break!

So my skimmed by on the Pharm exam and successful passed my IV check off. Yay! Now I'm on spring break & trying do as much as I can. Yesterday my husband and I went to visit his dad who is serving life in prison for being a habitual offender- when he was a teen I think he asulted someone or stole something(not for sure), then a few years later grand theft, then a few years later armed robbery (however the weapon was a toy gun- no real weapon). For those actions he is in for life, I don't think the punishent warrants life in prision, at least let him have the option for paraole. But the only shot at that is if my Husband & I gather funds & find a lawyer to pursue it (he has no else involved in his life). I never knew the criminal, nor my husband, but we have grown to know a little about him now which must be changed. And my husband might even have a couple siblings that he will probably never meet.

Meanwhile, have heard about all those Tornado's this past weekend? My brother had to hang out in his basement again but they didn't get one, got to love the valley.

Also Practicum assignments are out!!! I got Winnie Palmer - mother/baby unit (postpartum). Of course I'm sure God must have played a role in this. Tomorrow I get to speak with my preceptor & figure out my schedule. Don't get me wrong, there are still lots of exams left that must be stellar grades so I can succeed & exceed so I may get pinned on May 2nd.

Now for a few Tidbits....

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  10 Foods good for hair here, I know I could always use a little more strength and shine, I'll admit it I dye my hair. I was born with blond hair, so pretty, with a hint of strawberry-red highlights. People would kill for that, but since my hair got somewhat darker- a dirty blond I suppose, I go all out with the bleach blond effect. Although some people may wonder what my true color is (those who didn't know me as a kid) look at my eyes (blue) and my eyebrows- they are light. I'm not like the Hollywood bleachies with near black/dark brown eyebrows....


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  I just have to laugh at this one- a Ranking of the 10 Happiest States (and the less than happy) here .... Tennessee is tied for 10th for low well-being, only to be neighbors to Florida at number 9. Taking a look at the low ones- a lot are from the south so maybe health places a role- lots of obese people in southern states....


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  I found a new blog, Survival Mom, thanks to the Today show. I'll admit I watch Doomsday Preppers on Natgeo. I find it interesting and at some point may consider having a 3 month supply of food (maybe?) but definitely interested in getting some N95 masks (thanks to Contagion and me being a nurse) and increasing my medical supplies. I've lived through Hurricane warnings when the shelves are cleared before the news can report it, when power goes out for a week and the grocery stores can not sell anything or only dry goods, and gas is getting in line for at least an hour. So I know first hand that getting the items you want (vs the items you'll only use if you have to like certain foods) means shopping before the event, before the warning. And to some extent couponing can play a role in this! Are you the Ant or the Grasshopper??

Well I hope that was enough mindless info and updating....