Tuesday, January 25, 2011
I can't believe it, even saying it just doesn't seem right (as if I need to double check the calendar). Can you even believe that Christmas was a mere month ago?
I'm sure if you are in my position then you can not believe it.
So this semester is Med/Surg ... aka... the crackdown!
Now we are learning about region specific disease (like respiratory) plus all the meds that go along with each little disease.... And it's only a couple days until our first test... I'm so scared!
We've had lots of drama so far with class, I've had my first clinical but today should have been 2nd and full work load clinical but hey I'm sick.... That means I have to make this day up at the end of the semester! Joy to me. I know it seems like I'm complaining alot but really i'm shaking in my boots. My eyes are wide open and trying to hear every word muttered in class yet I still feel so lost and uneducated. Nursing one was easy to grasp because I could see it. Nursing 2... it's all basically book work, it's not reading but memorizing (which they claim we don't need to do... they also say we don't need to know the stuff like a doctor would but i bed to differ..).
So in my mind I had a few goals for the year... now my goals have ben reduced my priority is to passing Nursing 2, try to stay as healthy as possible while doing it and hopefully squeeze in a few minutes for God everyday. But it feels like i'm been slacking on all of the above. So tomorrow I'm going to try and push past this "i'm so overwhelmed that I am frozen in place, ie can't study" feeling and grind out a day of studying, coughing, & sniffles. So if you are the praying type please say a prayer for me, please! At this point I feel like the lone kid in class that just doesn't get it and while everyone else could probably rattle off the symptoms to COPD, HIV, and others... I'm just like uhhh B?
So God if you can read this blog please help me get it, help me pass this test and this class so I can continue forward on my path. Amen!
Monday, January 10, 2011
I can't wait until then....
The heckticness of "first day" of Nursing 2 will be done, including clinical orientation! And I'm hoping that I'll have a better grasp of what will happen in N2, meaning I won't feel overwhelmed like I did this morning as I checked out the N2 website.
You know that overwhelming feeling that just makes you instinctually yell out (at least in your head) "RETREAT!" But if there is one thing I've learned in life- You Can't Go Back. Yes, I'm scared and of course it's natural to try to "avoid" impeding doom but the time has come to stand up tall, take a deep breath, and march forward. If I let fear take control I'll never move forward, I'll be forever stuck in this position. I'll essentially be a rock. And I know that when God gave me life that he did not intend for me to live as a rock. Tomorrow I will suit up in my whites, hair up, and books (and calculator) ready because my future is waiting for me....
As for today... my intentions are not fulfilling themselves..?...
It's not really cold but dang it is gloomy (i think it's about the rain). I haven't finished ready Post-Op, I haven't taken my mock (dry run) math test, and I don't have anything put together for school tomorrow (like my book bag packed- i don't know what to bring). But on the positive side I did do my 30 minutes on the recumbent bike while watching Hoda & KL.
Friday, January 7, 2011
- So did you get last Sundays paper? Tons of inserts! and this week there will be 3!
- I spent a little bit of my Xmas money today. I got an Old Navy coupon code that could have been up to 50% off (but was only 20) so I got some clearance stuff and in an act of unselffishness I got 3 items that are not for me. I'm just that loving, caring, and generous.
- Just for fun I thought I'd mention 2 websites I've loving lately- Money Saving Mom - I've been following this one probably since I started couponing in 2008, very good blog that deals with saving money and being generous christians. Southern Plate - I got the cookbook from the library (great one) and saw the lady on the today show a week or so ago, good ole southern cooking!
- Also I recently heard that the Duggar's new season will start in Feb (YAY- can't wait to see the 2nd grandduggar "in the making") and of course Tuesday (my first clinical 1/2 day and oritentation) Teen Mom 2 starts - I think Leah's little family is so aborable and can't wait to see her wed her twins daddy! (yes i'm a little strange and crazy but that makes me- me, right?)
- I must confess... I like Sarah Palin's Alaska and although I don't know her political views she does seem to be family minded and I like it. Mostly I really want to take a trip to Alaska!
So... although the content above may not be exciting or even interesting to some of the whoever you are (viewing my blog)... This is just a glimpse into my interests, aside from Nursing....
Well it's the last weekend before Nursing 2 begins. It does seem like it's been a long break but considering the next break between semesters is just 1 measly week.... I could use another week of R&R before it all begins.
So what will Nursing 2 be like?
I wish I could ask that to one who has already been there....
I know I'll have 1 hellicously long clinical at the hospital every week and some sort of paper (?) and some sort of "teaching" presentation (yikes!) and did I mention a time at the mental institution (hope they don't decide to keep me for observation..) also:
54 Pharmacology objectives (?)
Some sheet says "Nursing Labs" like lab tests/values?
A little bit if IV work (not started one)
and my fav (may be future hated) shots (aka injections)
So... like usual I'm a good mixture of excited and super duper scared. I'm scared of clinicals even more because they make me nervous. I'm afraid of failure to perform my duties accurately. So I hope God will step in and calm my nerves and give me a boost of confidence in times of need. My uniform may be all white but my face with a pink/red shade!
I try to block out what most others say, like "rumors" b/c they usually just cause me to overreact about something I can't control. I think as a nurse you need to maintain a certain level of "calm" so I'm practicing that with my Nursing school. I've seen fellow students complain or get upset or irritated over something here or there but when the day is done whatever it is - is what it is. I mean- getting upset or "bitching" doesn't change the situation (in this instance) so for me, and my "calm" attitude I just don't bother by spending time on the outrage? lol The truth is a simple change in schedule or something little to argue over with the teachers is just a mere speck of dust in comparison to what being a Nurse will be like- changes, inconsistencies, upset people to deal with--- I think that's part of the daily life of a nurse (but hey I'm not one yet so what do I know?)
So to my friends, family, and maybe the random nursing student who reads this... send me some prayers! I have 4 semesters left on my quest to be a RN and make a few little dreams come true for my family.
May God Bless Us All This Spring Nursing 2
Saturday, January 1, 2011
Well my night didn't go well.....
We decided to take th dogs for a walk at 6:30pm, just after dark. It went well until about half way through when some idots starts shooting fireworks- Zoey went balastic! So we tried to quickly make it home but not before the "kids" shot off a couple more.... so once home he was ok but shaky and clearly scared out of his mind. And for some reason the fire works in a neighborhood went on constistantly for hours! And he barked everytime.... so after playing a couple hours of video games with my husband by 10 pm I had a horrable headache.... we decided to just go to bed.... Yeah I know, not very exciting, we didn't even stay up to kiss at midnight and wtch the ball drop. But what can I say, circumstances warrented a quick ending to a "Epic Fail" of a night.... Needless to say I woke up with the headache as well, in fact it is still lingered. I took 1000 mg worth of Excedrin and it has dulled it but i can still feel it faintly.
I evened missed my dad's midnight phone call to wish us a happy new year (saddness).
But anyways I'd like to begin by sharing a website with inspiration quotes, a little positive motivation to start the year going strong!